LIFE PATH 19/1 – INFERIORITY
The Karmic Debt of the number 19/1 is due, it is believed, to the abuse of power / status / position in a pervious incarnation. The effect on the lives of others would have been to strip away their self confidence / self esteem / independence / by disempowering them. Their resulting experience would have been a feeling of helplessness / resentment / inferiority.
What this does not mean is that you will experience the same thing done to you in the same way. The debt you have is brought with you so no-one else is involved in the cause, otherwise the debt would be perpetually moved from person to person. What the presence of the Karmic Debt 19 does mean is that you must learn to experience the feelings and emotions that come with lack of self esteem, self confidence and self belief. The number 1 of the 19 represents the individual / the ego / your own personal experiences. The number 9 represents selflessness and humanitarianism. To repay this debt you must learn to promote yourself with confidence, belief and – most importantly – humility.
Because of this Karmic Debt, the Life Path 19 lesson that you must learn will be the same as the 1 but you are likely to portray a more extreme negative of its potential to begin with. As a consequence you must learn to conquer this negativity before you can repay the debt and ultimately learn the positive potential of the Life Path lesson. In the meantime you are likely to experience a lack of confidence in yourself and your abilities and little by way of peace of mind.
The overbalanced 1 may attempt to over-inflate their persona / position / accomplishments as a compensation for their lack of self confidence. Making up stories and fabricating the truth is not beyond them. Whilst they may win the respect and admiration of others they cannot fool themselves so they are no better off and may have to live up to their self professed billing into the bargain. They are inclined to be self opinionated and egotistical. The world revolves around them … it is a lonely world.
The underbalanced 1 is dependent and posessive. What little they have they will hide behind, unable to let go, and may well develop jealous tendencies and violent rages. They may well lie, cheat and steal in order to compensate for their lack of confidence and self esteem. They may find great difficulty in making friends because of their solitary lifestyle and introvert tendencies. Shyness is probable. There may be a difficulty in coming to terms with new ideas – especially when it is not their own – and may fear the prospect of standing alone and being accountable for their own actions.
Life Path 19 person must find the middle ground between superiority and debasement. The measure of ones worth is not status, power or posessions. Peace of mind comes with being comfortable with ones inner self. Self love is not conceit. If you don’t love yourself … who can? Self love doesn’t mean ‘egoism’. It is a knowledge of self worth and a felling if well being that spreads love and warmth to all those whose lives you may touch.